I think the hardest part about separating from a long-term relationship or marriage is that you watch the ripple of your journey begin to travel backwards as its ending. As it finishes its time of existence. Like the Big bang. The spark that expanded across the universe will eventually rewind back against its expansion. And eventually we will remember nothing. I’m reminded of the song “Somebody that I use to know.” While the ending of my marriage was inevitable. It strange to watch the sands of time bury the city that once was. Eroding an experience that was filled with so much life. I suppose this is necessary to exist going forward. Many buildings have served a purpose for a period only to be down later to build something new.
Most relationships end in hard feelings or hate. Mine did not. It ended with amicable understandings that we were two imperfect people. People that had not discovered all they needed to know about each other on their own terms to make an adequate choice in life partner. I take that back, we both chose the adequate life partner for the period of life we were in. The travesty would be to destroy the memories of what once was by trying to maintain something not currently working.
The last 10 years have taught me so much about life. I can only hope that the next 10 years can be an effort of taking what I’ve learned and implement it into something new. Endings are sad. They suck. They hurt.
In a few moments I can scroll through every photograph of my journey with my former spouse and relive those years. From the beginning to the end. That creates a feeling in me I don’t have an adequate word to describe other than strange. It makes you realize how fast a moment in time is. We are specks of life in an unfathomably infinite amount of time.
Live, laugh, and love as cliché as that sounds and a slogan I terribly loathe. But it will all be over soon. So, you better get to it.
They say don’t grieve that it’s over, be happy that it happened. You can do both.
As I approach the dawn of a new horizon. My heart has known genuine love. That is the greatest adventure to have had.
